Waiting....

Only 22 more days until I get to hold my son.

It's all I can do to wait... Waiting is not something that I do very well. Not sure anyone quite has it mastered...but it's not something I do well.

I usually look at waiting as a task to be done. I wait from this date to this date. I can manage that. I can manage a wait that has a definite end. For example, once our Dossier went to Ethiopia, we were told it may be 4-6 weeks before it's registered and then we are assigned a court date. You better believe that once we got to 5 weeks, I was getting ANTSY! Up until the 5 week mark... I was fine! Then when we got the call in December that we were registered for Court, then it would 2-4 weeks before we had a date... I was FINE with that! Then, surprisingly, we got a call the NEXT WEEK with our Court Date!! YAY GOD!! But why wasn't it "YAY GOD" when our Dossier got sent, or our docs were registered? Just because they were "on time" or "LATE" does that not also require a "YAY GOD" from me???

I should not ONLY praise the LORD when things happen SOONER than expected. I should PRAISE HIM for every piece. That's a bit tougher. Just like many other parts of my life... How quickly I can Praise Him for the FUN STUFF, and how tough it is to Praise Him for the Not Fun stuff!! *ARE THEY NOT BOTH HIS?

Then, what is it about this definite end needed for my wait? Does it not say "Be still and Wait"? I'm sure that the Lord did not accidentally leave a stopping point off.... I think of Hebrews 11 and all those who came before who were unable to see the fulfilment of their waiting and working.

Have I become a task master? Seeking joy only in the completion?

My prayer is to ACTIVELY SEEK out the JOY in the WAITING, the JOY in the Interruption, the JOY in the Delay, the JOY in the Sadness, the JOY in the Trouble, the JOY in the Small Update, the JOY in the Journey... not only the JOY in the DESTINATION!

Most importantly... and ABOVE ALL... Should not the JOY OF MY SALVATION be the well-spring of my heart at any moment?